Running Through the Trance


Last weekend on 3/24/2024 I did my first ever 20 miler all alone repeating loops in a radius of 2 miles at a snail's pace... Slowly and steadily chugging along...During those 5 hours many thoughts crossed my mind, many forgotten moments relived and many hidden memories resurfaced. I felt a gamut of emotions from happy to sad, from energized to fatigued, from exuberance to exhaustion. There were so many people I felt immense gratitude for that day. I felt a strong urge to message and thank them all on my return ..Just 3 months back it was an unthinkable thought and here I was today completing the longest-distance milestone of my life.

But...

When I finished the run I drew a blank..Words fell short.I felt inadequate of expressing any sentiment.I felt stoned and expressionless. Just a tear in the eye and a heartfelt thank you to my coach(sometime later) was all I had to express my big day..

Sometimes silence is the best expression, I guess...

A profound state of no emotion is an emotion in itself, isn't it?

Just Like Running Through The Trance.....

Comments

  1. AtulMarch 26, 2024 at 8:59 PM

    Kudos for the write up and the run!! Amazing stuff

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  2. Mo-Passionate-SideMarch 29, 2024 at 7:41 PM

    Nicely written Raman and I can relate to the 5+ hours of running when "no emotion" makes you stoned, which in itself is an Emotion !!!

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